There's the Door

First, I want to say thank you to everyone that read my first post. The joy and tears that it brought me was astonishing. I screamed when I hit publish out of fear that it was going to fail and no one would read it. However, I do know the worst thing you can do is not take the risk of "what if". When I hit 60 views in 24 hours I jumped around and cried in the shower of like WHAT JUST HAPPENED. I cannot thank you enough for everything. Please continue to read and share this with friends, family, loved ones, frenemies, etc. Well, anyways, here's to this week's topic... Is there a correct way to close the door with an ex?

I walked through the door with you, I remember it all to well.

I have been told by many different people to never look back once the relationship has ended. Well that did not always happen in my case. I tend to text or drunk call or just simply do a "pulse check" with my exes. With my most recent relationship I could not get him out of my mind. Everything I did or talked about I had a tendency of bringing up an old memory of us together. I would get furious when I would do that because it would change my whole demeanor no matter who I was with. One of my best friends in the world, who was born on the same day and year might I add, kept telling me the door would close the moment I started to put myself first and just love who I am. I would cry and just sob that I miss me and I do not know where I went. She would just keep telling me to stop, slow down and LOVE YOURSELF. So as any Leo would do, I did not take the advice right away. Honestly I think she gave me the same advice three to four times and finally I got tired of hearing it and thought maybe to give it a try. Here I am, LOVING ME, starting to at least. Well one heavy night I had logged on to twitter and sent him a DM to "close the door". I sent a message saying that I missed him and that I hope he is doing good and that this is me closing the door. I woke up the next morning called my MeeMaw and told her "damage" that I had done. Her response was the best thing I needed that day. "Now babe, sometimes we have to do things in order to move on"... is that what I did? Ever since that night I do feel some what of a relief, however I tend to feel as if there is a book of rules to follow when it comes to exes and what to do with the dead and deceased. Then I think "now how is there an ex rule book to follow when every. single. person. on this earth is different". Some might say that what I did was immature or that I just reopened said door by telling him how I felt, but honestly it is what I thought I needed to do to close the door and move on with myself. Maybe it is better for everyone else to never message the person again, but for me it was a "let me get everything I feel out for the last time", and walk away.

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Anxiously with love,

reece